“AR”-Dutch
Before.
Giving you a second chance hoping you’ll change. Wanting to become friends, even after all that we’ve all been through. The constant “I miss him, I wish we didn’t loose contact”. Just everything, everything that happened between us. Although things ended badly between us, I’ve always wanted to get to know you on that friend level. To know and understand you from friend to friend. Unfortunately, we both moved on and went about our lives.
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Knowing what I know now, fuck all that I’ve said before. Fuck those “I miss you”. Fuck, wanting to get to know you on a friend to friend base. Everything was a lie, at least from what you’ve proven to me. I don’t regret one thing at all. But all I have to say is, thank you! Thanks for hurting me so badly because if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be this strong of a girl. Now you can go ahead and put 100+ bucks in the douche bag jar. Bitchass niggguh!
Our family slowly started drifting away, acting like strangers under one roof. Talking behind each other’s back, mean glares at one another…it seems to have no end to it.
I miss the laughs we all used to share, the memories made together, everything a family usually does as one. It brings me to tears knowing that we’re all drifting apart, while our two loved ones are above watching and witnessing this all happen.
None of this was suppose to happen. We’re suppose to have each other’s back, especially the downfall of it all, but instead we choose to bump heads.
It scares me knowing one day everybody will reach their breaking point, to where we can’t even put our differences aside for a family dinner or birthday party.
My Advocacy teacher showed us this video of Yosemite. It’s so prettty! I went there before, but I went during the summer when the waterfalls were all drying up. I definitely have to go again, soon. Staying til it’s late too. I’m gonna convince my parents to take us this summer. Can’t wait!
Thank you to the person who made this. Appreciate Shihan!
My whiteboy carries me to class like a princess everyday… or whenever I ask him too, even sometimes out of the blue. LOL, he’s the best!
Krystal Lee. 15. California girl. Full blood, Hmong.




